Hello my big beautiful boy,

Thinking of you tonight and how long its been since I last wrote to you on here. I know you see everything anyway and are always here with me so I guess writing how I feel on here only upsets me and I know you wouldnt want that which is why I dont come on here to write very much.

As you will already have seen we have welcomed your beautiful, cheeky little sister Maci into the world and she is so much like you George. She lools like you, she gets excited and shakes like you and she even has your sticky up hair too. She is perfect and she reminds me of you so much everyday. I can’t believe she is nearly 10 months and will soon be passed the age we lost you at. It makes me sad in so many ways because I imagine you doing all the things she’s doing, although you were a bit quicker to crawl you’ll be glad to know

I try my best not to think too much about the day we lost you as it hurts too much but I love to think about all the things you were starting to do, il always remember your determination to climb the stairs and how you’d stand at the stair gate waiting for me whilst I went to make our breakfast in a morning. I remember your furniture shuffling around the bedroom as you were so eager to walk, your cheeky smile and how you wanted to be into everything. You were so inquisitive, so strong, so advanced and so clever; you really were making me so proud. I’m so sorry you were robbed of your future and I’m so sorry for the pain you suffered you never deserved any of it. 

I hope you can see how happy we are as a family and how your little brother and sister bring so much love and happiness to our lives. I hope it makes you proud and I hope you see all the things we do in your memory and all the times we talk about you. Henry is beginning to understand that he has a big brother George who lives in the sky with the Angels and sends us feathers now and again to show us he’s there. He is I’m afraid though very hesitant to send you any balloons we have knocking about :-)

We will always remember you, love you and keep your memory alive in all that we do for the rest of our lives and through countless others George. You will never ever be forgotten and you are always my perfect, amazing, special little boy. I so wish we had longer together and I so wish I could have you here now, what a big boy you would be. It’s so unfair that you are there and we are here when we should have always been together. 

I love you with all my heart, I miss you more than anyone can ever understand. I’m sending you the biggest cuddles and kisses and I hope your doing ok up there.

Love always mummy xxx